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[11 Nov 2006|11:31pm] |
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I've been getting so pissed off lately. Bad shit keeps happening and its wearing me out. I'm getting mad at everyone for no reason. It sucks. I have no idea what's going on. I'm just really pissed. I can't wait for next wednesday
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[08 Nov 2006|12:43am] |
Today was pretty sweet.
I met ben from billy talent today haha. He came to my work and we were talking about the death threat show and he said he was playing and he put me and a friend on his guest list. So now me and rick are going to the billy talent, thursday and rise against show tonight hahahahaha..sweet..
Thanks ben your swell
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[07 Nov 2006|07:06am] |
My lease is up january 1st.
Which can only mean 1 thing..
SAN FRANSISCO!!
Sweet 3 bedroom apartment
Stoked!
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[26 Oct 2006|02:28pm] |
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There's basically no words to describe how good life's been lately. Everything has its downs but it has ups too. I've been working everday except for the weekends [dream schedule] and I get out before 8 everyday which means I can actually go to shows when I want to. Yesterday kyle and I were writing messages to people on the bottom of their cups haha. Besides that, I've been skating and keeping up the traditon with gangsta jayse of going to beths cafe every sunday or right after a sweet skate session. I haven't fallen in a long time, which is good but sucks cause that just means I haven't learned anything. I think I'm so happy cause I'm finally letting go and giving up. There's way too much to do with your life than care about some guy. So I give up for a while. Besides..you never find anything your looking for...especially in seattle hahah. I'll take my chances in olympia
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[23 Oct 2006|03:15pm] |
I don't feel like myself today. I haven't for a couple days. For some reason I'm really anxious. I wish there was a way to rewind all the best parts of your life and go threw them again. I feel like crying and I have no reason to.
If we haven't hung out in a while we definatly need to!
ESPECIALLY YOU BRANDON...way to not have your phone..againnnnn
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[16 Oct 2006|12:00pm] |
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I've been thinkg a lot about my life. How I live it, how I want to live it and what I've been through so far. I've made a lot of stupid mistakes that easily could've been avoided. But then again, making mistakes is how you learn. I've never been the kind of person who sets goals to acheive in the future. I've always been this live life in the moment, make as many mistakes as possible but learn from them all kind of person. That's always been something I thought of as a good thing because I never want to 1 day regret doing anything. Everyone has regrets no matter what. There's nothing you can do about that. I found a few pictures a couple days ago and I realized how much I've changed in my life. I've been through all the stages of growing up. But no matter what I ever was, I've always been the same person on the inside I was when I was little. Always adventurous, always questioning everything I never understood, always wanting to belong somehwere. It never really accured to me until right now that this is where I belong. I guess the whole belonging thing means something different for everyone. For me its not about being accepted by everyone. Its about loving the place your in in your life. Being completly happy and comfortable with it. I always used to try something get sick of it and want a drastic change for myself. I've been listening to the same music, dressing the same, doing the same things and hanging out with the same people for 4 almost 5 years. Its the first time in my life where I wouldn't change anything for the world. Sometimes I feel like I take life for granted. I've been in situations where I felt like I hit rock bottom. Times when I didn't even want to wake up again. When I think about all the good things I have and all the god things that have come out of my life it makes that whole theory so stupid. So many people have it way worse than most of us can relate to. I've been having a pretty emotional year but its been looking up so much lately. It wouldn't be that way if I didn't have the friends or memories I have.
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[11 Oct 2006|05:26am] |
Thank you marshall for that amazing 6 shot carmel machiato. Now I'm trying to sleep so I can be up at 5am.
Starbucks in the city is soooo much better than issaquah. They don't care about my plugs or tattoos and everyones hella laid back and awesome.
Minus the fact of having to work at all 3 starbucks in the same building. I still don't understand why seattle needs that much coffee. Oh well tips for meee
Hatebreed thursday yayyy
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[07 Oct 2006|07:25pm] |
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for a few months i was seriously starting to think that i was at the lowest point i could possibly be. thats finally changed. its not because of any certain person, its because of a bunch of good things happening. my life is finally back to the point where i feel like it has meaning and its not just a mistake. ive gotten alot better at letting go of the past, past feelings and people. i havent felt this good in a long time. i actually have good days that make me happy and it feels real.
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[05 Oct 2006|10:27pm] |
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I'm on the bus right now going to work. Yay. I hope this weekend is fun and I better be hanging out with kori cause I love her haha
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[03 Oct 2006|02:58pm] |
Erika I miss you crazy bad! Your 1 in a million!! Haha (relationship...I have a feeling that's gonna happen a lot as you read on..). I miss all the insane things we've done. I guarentee life wouldn't be this fun without you! That's what I always loved the most about our friendship. We think of something that would be funny and do anything it takes to do it. Here comes the trip down memory lane...
It all started out trying to make pennys life a living hell. With the idea of trying to catch tiger on fire?! Haha what were we thinking! Then it was sneaking out of class to ride the bus from front st market back to school with dick popsicles andones that tasted like mud! Who could forget all the times we stole your daddys cars? Haha..but I think the 1 thing that made us closer was al because of winco. If we wouldn't have tried to find it so hard we wouldn't have had this many crazy adventures. Think about it..would we have gotten stuck in a mud field behind a church we had to pee on? Would we have found all those skateparks on accident? Would we have had so much fun on the good old maple valley hw? Or found nollies?! Or ENDED UP IN FUCKING MONROE!! I stil kinda wish we went offroading with those guys...hahaha
But anyways, that's just some of the reasons your the best pic ever. And we've always got eachothers back no matter what. I miss youuuuu..fuck you california. You steal my pic and you make me miserable hahaha
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[03 Oct 2006|12:33am] |
Life has been so god lately. I love my rommates to death and my friends couldn't be more awsome right now. I think its only this good cause I don't think about the past anymore. I don't care about it anymore. There's a few people I'd like to erase out of my life. If I never talk to you..your one of them.
Have a good life fuckers
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[27 Sep 2006|10:44am] |
Shit's been pretty good lately. The whole roommate situation is working out perfectly (knock on wood). I got a job at the 5th and union starbucks downtown.
Today was a really good day. Minus the part where I GOT LETTUCE IN MY EYE (it was a weird freak-sandwhiching incident...). Darcy and I went to dinner at the broadway grill and stole the forks from our salads and gave them and our leftovers to some convienient homeless guy by the metro. Then we went to get donuts at 3am haha..and I'm still not tired.
I'm stoked for friday. Tacoma shows are hella fun
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[25 Sep 2006|07:15pm] |
This month has been so good. I've gone to the pyuallup fair more times this month than I have in my whole life haha. Sarah and I got a new roommate, well basically 2 cuz I figure josh will be over all the time haha. Its gonna rule.
Random question: why are there so many spray painted cars in seattle? I've seen like 15 since I moved here.
Anyway..I'm definatly sick :( and I better not have fucking bronchitis...
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[19 Sep 2006|11:29am] |
Dear charlie,
I hate you. You make me mad at everything for no apparent reason. You keep me awake all night because you hurt me. Thanks to you I feel like puking. You ruin everything. I don't like you one bit.
I can't wait to be 50...
haha....
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[17 Sep 2006|10:00pm] |
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I had a huge breakdown this morning. It was weird but I'm glad it happend. I always complain about how I want all this shit to happen and I never do anything about it. I really really miss the old me. When I was always in a good mood. So, I just quit smoking. I threw out the rest of my pack and I'm giving the other one to ann. I'm not drinking or smoking weed either. I spent too much money on that shit. I already feel a lot happier. I don't care if you all doubt me. Go ahead and talk your shit. I'm done with being the way I was. I'm sick of thinking 6 beers and a few shots is going to make me feel better. I've lost too many people to cancer from smoking and drunk driving. That's not what I want for myself. I'm better than that.
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[16 Sep 2006|02:55am] |
New sn:
x we take control
I'M me cuz I can't load my list and I'm too lazy to type them all in so add me if you wanna talk to meeee<3
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[15 Sep 2006|06:22am] |
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Its been soo cold lately. I wonder if it snows in the city? I haven't been doing a whole lot of anything lately. Today I ran to gasworks park and worked out more. I've become obsessed. I love fitting my size 5 jeans again :) I feel like I have mono again. That shit sucked soooo bad. But skating on lots of vicodin and percoset was sweet. I'm hella stoked for hatebreed and firstblood! Woo!
Interview at starbucks at westlake tomorrow which means waking up early, which means time to go read (yes..read) and go to bed.
Later
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[13 Sep 2006|03:56pm] |
Yesterday was 1 of the best days I've had a longgg time. I'm pretty sure I say that everytime but how can you go wrong with beerfest!? Sarah, neal and I walked in the theater and it was allll dudes. So sarah and I pull out 40's and start drinking and at that time everyone else had the same idea haha. I'm pretty sure the guy sitting next to me worked for kiss 106 haha (at least that's what his friend said). I don't remember much of the movie. Between getting up to pee and being drunk haha. Then we came home and alex stayed the night. We kept waking up to go smoke haha. Smoking outside wrapped in a huge blanket rulez.
Everyone needs to come over sometime, those of you who haven't seen my apartment. Fagasaurus rex's
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[11 Sep 2006|05:24pm] |
So portland never happend. Joe decided to waste 3 grand on drugs and 3 bottles of hennesey. Fucking retard. So brit and I spent 3 hours in the graveyard sitting on gregs dead and buried body talking to him. Fucking saddest shit. No one should ever die when their 19, especially on the day they decide to change their life. I miss him.
I'm feeling better now that I'm back home. Hung out with chad yesterday. Blah blah god life is in a serious drought of fun right now.
I hate getting smoke in my eyes ow it hurts.
Time to go skate now
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[08 Sep 2006|02:55pm] |
Lastnight was certainly an interesting one. Apparently we spent the night at this house on the eastside of tacoma that's been shot up 7 times in the past 3 years. And the dudes we were hanging out with lastnight were "eastside morton crips". Gangsta gangsta.
Anywho, today we're going to greg's cross and then portland.
Its 8am and talyn and joey still haven't left :(
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